It’s the pit in your stomach when you come home from a long day at work and realize that everything you’re working so hard for is not materializing. With the flick of a switch and no results, your heart drops to your feet and tears stream. It’s knowing that your best isn’t good enough.
I’ve been without a telephone now for about a month. It’s an interesting, disconnecting feeling. For the most part, it hasn’t been a big deal, but every now and again when I am running late to the sitter or to work I realize just how handy having a working cell phone would be.
Electricity is a whole ‘nother territory. I realized the only thing I really missed was a hot shower and a working fridge. Everything else, I could do without. Milk doesn’t do well without a cold fridge, and I certainly can’t afford buying milk by the carton. Water? Became our best friend.
We were camping. In our comfy beds, in our comfy home—but we were camping by any other sense of the word.
Luckily, I was able to take a day off of work and stand in line with some other really kind hearted people and receive assistance in getting my electricity paid for. Truly humbling. After 3 full, long days I was able to have my electricity restored, as well as my dignity.
It’s just what you do. You make the best of the situation you’re dealt with. As shitty as it may be, and as emotional and upset it may make you, you get over it and you deal. And that’s what I am doing. I am looking ahead to better days and blue skies and not letting these minor(because really, we are healthy and we are loved and that’s more important) hurdles decapitate my life and the life that I have created.
Your the strongest women I know! I'm so proud and know in my heart I couldn't be as strong as u.. I take a much more cowardly path to avoid what ur going through.. but I know in The end u will be the happier person!! U inspire me! I hope one day.. ill have ur strength
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