What I've learned today...

- I've never been so thankful to not be sexually active. As it turns out, all this time I assumed my IUD was doin it's thing and protecting me from spawn? Nope. It's MIA. I'll have an xray tomorrow to be sure it hasn't started decorating the walls in my abdomen.

- the universe gives what you put into it. I was totally prepared to ask my crush on a date today. Then, he asked me out first. Score one for the home team! First date since N's dad up and left. I'm ready.

- volunteering for a charity event is like doubly gold star deserving when you're a single mom. No one likes to volunteer to babysit.

-therapy is worth every penny. More on this another day.

the nighttime

It's always after the kids are in bed that I feel the need to get out of my home. Maybe it's the walls closing in or my brain finally able to rest and allow for thoughts to finally process and I just yearn for an outlet; a release of all of the pent up stress and emotion.
But, no one is here to watch over my sleeping babies. And the nighttime is staring at me through the open window as if it's mocking me. And I am stuck here with all of my thoughts to overwhelm me. And I try my hardest to shut my brain off. And there is no off button.