tranquility

As I was holding Nathan in my arms tonight, and he slowly drifted into a peaceful slumber, I found myself full of emotion. It has been quite a while since he has fallen asleep in my arms, and it felt really nice.

My babies are growing. They are forming opinions, learning attitudes, and creating their identities. I am in awe of the absolute miracle I am lucky to be a part of.

If you know me, you know that I am a very patient person. Most anyone will say that they have never seen me angry. I was even told by numerous people that my kids will probably take advantage of that (though I do know how to show authority, it just doesn't have to be so obvious, does it?). I am quiet. It's not because I have nothing going on in my mind. I am a quiet, reserved person because I get carried away in thoughts. I think about things before I say them often to the point of over thinking, which leads to my quietness because once I think of what I want to say, it's already to late to make sense in the conversation. If  you've had a conversation with me, this is probably something you've noticed. It makes me appear scattered, but I usually have it all together in my head.  I taught myself to be this way. I don't know how.  Sometimes I wish I wasn't this way. I do wish I could be the social butterfly at times; Someone that could keep the conversation flowing. But, that's not me. I am friendly. I love people. I love meeting people. I'm just not that great with words.

I am a learner. I love to learn. I will research the heck out of anything. With that comes knowledge. I think I am smart. I know a lot of things, and if I don't know something, I will look it up. If someone tells me their opinion about something I am not informed about, I look it up. I like to find unbiased information and form my own opinion.
That's not to say I am a know-it-all. Because, I am not. But I will play the devil's advocate. Not because I like to argue, or because I like the competition, but because I have learned it is a great way to learn. One of my favorite quotes is by Aristotle (I think). "It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it."

I often do not capitalize letters on this blog. It's not because I don't realize that I am doing it. I know. I am just too lazy sometimes to bother. I also think it looks better (as typography).

I have accepted the fact that I will likely be the old cat lady with no cats. Lonely and single, with no reason to shave my legs. It's ok though.

Scattered. That's me.